In the Light

Shadow Play

Those who walk in the shadows, with their pale white skin, are never seen by the light of day. Such travels led by the road of darkness are easiest by far.  Eluding responsibility of actions, under the cover of darkness there is the possibility to be less then desirable without absolute accountability. These are the one’s who’s behaviors remain questionable...why do they seek shelter within the shadows? Is it a question of what they are doing or why they are doing it? Are they malicious, baneful, or corrupt? Plausibly, their intentions may or may not be wayward, but they hide just the same, with shame. Fearing light, fearing responsibility, accountability these are their walls, which cast the shadow of darkness with which they hide. Bleak is their outcome. Whether purposeful or not, without accountability can there be a righteous way? I for one believe not. To hide one’s self in shame is not worthy of existence. The magnitude of self-purpose within this world should be doted upon; it is not one to be shamed. Lurking in the shadows of life is all but a waste of life for shame festers within the shadows. If one were to reach into the light the shadows of shame shall disappear. Life’s experience within the light does require accountability, but light also provides warmth and comfort so that many of the errors made within one’s life will produce a lesser pain. Choosing the light is difficult but much of what is sown will be reaped and provide nutrition for the soul... And you shall not languish in the darkness any more.

What is a Day

The Reveal

The “I” in “I AM” is that of a historical nature. To determine, who one is, is a reflection of one’s actions. So when determining oneself, we must look at our history. History, a time-line of choices, behaviors identifying oneself with truth of who you are written in pages of past events… the accumulation of a lifetime. So it is at the end of life the true determination is exposed. Prior to the end is the time of making... the glimmering sun rises as we ask ourselves, “who will i be today?”

Living

Freedom is NOW

a stroll is the night air clears the mind
ones senses are revealed
one walks with the earth
the mother of our world
frees one from captivity
the congestion of the day
flees with wind
as it brushes the brow
kisses the cheek
it is freedom-which is adored and desired
it is freedom-for life is lived in the now

With Each Step

Walking the Path

deity empower my soul
providing the power to mold
a life of honor and peace within
this is the way my life transcends

thank you deity for your gift
which strength the magick within
I set it free worldwide
profound magick shall ride
blesses be

Connected

Bound By Nature

I give thanks to the earth
its energy within
soothe the mind
and strengthen the magick
I call to life
by sending its energy
intertwined with dreams
to enhance my life and those around
to the earth I shall be bound
blesses be to the mother of thee

choices

Who AM I


In the misted of trying times are the moments which reveal the true colors of who
we are and what we can be. Though difficult, without these moments we could never
know our full potential. At our weakest hour we must ask, can we lift ourselves from
this Dark place? Whether it is with our own strength or with the hand of another, or
will we chose to lay ourselves down in sorrow and stop the rotation of our world.
Which will dampen our heart, putting out the flame that drives life. Only you will
know at that moment which path will be followed when this divergence is placed.
But fear not, what you choose at the first particular instant may matters not. The true
reveal may fall in the next moment. When we must ask ourselves again, “Now- will I
be strong?”

golden rays

Truth in Spirit

Step back... an attempt to reflect and understand these moments- my eyes become clouded. Unable to see, I feel a hand stretched out pulling me from the darkest of days as this hand helps me out of the darkness, I begin to see a light, which shines brighter than any light. I raise my hand to ease the glare in my eyes and it is then that I can see. It is a face with endearing eyes and a calming voice. This face is familiar to me. I focus on its eyes and I can see it is my spirit staring back at me. There, is my salvation, a kind heart and soul created this bright light. In ease, I realize this bright light is truth within... Light- it is the true me.

                                                                                                                       11-1-2009

drawing in the earth

Earth Magick

Beating down
Sun exhilarates
Spirit lift
Untouched height of the soul

Nipping cool breeze
Subtle brushing
Chilling the outer shell of humanity
Forces of nature intertwined
I am one
I am whole

I am the tree
The rock
The soil

Realism projected
Alone empty
Only a human life source

Combined energy flows
Tingling organs
Calm of mind
Earths energy is mine

11/1/2009

To Be Bound

In the midst of a crisis, there are only but
the few, who will have the strength and faith
to see victory through. The brave have stamina
they forge through the night. They will not
be impeded by the blackness in sight. These
demons they battle relentlessly come. There
is no end to their numbers-impossible to be
counted one-by-one. This struggle began
over a decade ago and is still going strong
as the days pass on. There was a time when
they thought that there would be a end to
this fight. Since they used all of their
strength and all of their might. But now
they proclaimed that they will always be
bound.
Marlo Suderski
Hospital 1/9/07

destiny

Dream

How many, will see the dreams of future days
or will they drift away unknown by the many
who yearn for hope and destiny. Dreams are
the makers of men and of sovereignty but
can be the destroyers as well.
These are the visions that urge us in our waking
hour. Beyond dreams we walk, our path
will reveal our destiny or will our destiny
reveal our path. It is this unknown concept
that spines swiftly towards chaos. Unwittingly,
men do not know which winged angel is to be
followed, if at all. This is why, travels always
cause despondency when it reveals a fruitless
endeavor. Whether we are guided matters not
if our path has not produced what our hearts
desire. so chaos flickers in each of us when
our dreams are unrealized. And our struggle
will continue whether or not destiny comes
before or after the walked path.
8/13/05

theory or Fact

Philosophy

Ones destiny takes form with each
moment of existence. Each experience
shapes who we are in the presents
of a particular day. So we are but a
reflection of our past existence. Or are
we more? As the multitude of years
past, we slowly become the creature
of our existence. But it is an individual
day that mold us into who we are. Our
ideals are but reflections of our past as
well as present moments in life. The
school of life is existence. But, each
individual teaches themselves what to
extract from the day to form their
present ideals. As a student of life
individual growth is internal and the
perpetuation of such growth may only
occur with open eyes to the surrounding
world. Moments of life provide the
possibility of personal change but this
change may not occur if the student
becomes blinded lacking the sight for
internal growth which brings about
change. If this growth is stunted the
individual dies, and a internal pit
forms at the core of existence. The
past thereafter, will not relinquish
it self as past moments it maintains
its existence in each day and holds
the possibility of existence in tomorrow
as well. It is only with the release of the
past that frees tomorrow into a brand
new day. It is the present that has the
ability to change who we are and what
we will become till the end of a day. As
each day draws to its end a new mold is
made and imprinted with what we will
be in tomorrow. So it is possible to learn
new ideals as long as we remain
self-motivated student of the present
and express our new formed knowledge
in the next day. Once past moments
have been shape with presents ones the
past is no longer finite.This is how one
can exist in the present without expressing
moments of the past.With eyes wide open
we will always change.
fall 1996